[Verse 1: Olivia O’Brien]
Feeling used
But I’m
Still missing you
And I can’t
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can’t seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
[Hook: Olivia O’Brien]
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to, but I can’t put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her
[Verse 2: Gnash]
I miss you when I can’t sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can’t eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don’t remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
****** around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I’m always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn’t like that ****
I put this reel out, but you wouldn’t bite that ****
I type a text but then I nevermind that ****
I got these feelings but you never mind that ****
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You’re still in love with me but your friends don’t know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don’t mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn’t and you ******* did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your ******* fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all ******* mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn’t be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it’s good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song
[Hook: Olivia O’Brien and Gnash]
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to, but I can’t put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her
[Bridge: Olivia O’ Brien and Gnash]
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she’s the only girl you’ve ever seen
You don’t care you never did
You don’t give a **** about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She’s the only thing you’ve ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me
[Hook: Olivia O’Brien]
I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don’t want to, but I can’t put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I’ll never be her
The first time I heard this song, I was sitting alone on my hotel room balcony in Galveston. One of my fellow music loving friends sent me a link and I instantly related to the lyrics. This was unusual, because I mostly relate to older music, but this song was fairly new. Olivia O’Brien’s voice is really what drew me in because it is so effortless and beautiful.
In my life, I have had my share of heartbreaks. As cliche as it all is, broken hearts to exist and it’s difficult to put those feelings into words. This is one of the only songs that I’ve ever heard that completely explained my feelings after being a “second option”. After having recently lost one of my best friends, the lyrics “Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance/ I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing/ But I learned from my dad that it’s good to have feelings” really hit home. I was really struggling with how to deal with people leaving and not looking back. But in some way, I feel as if this song helped me understand that sometimes people simply do not care as much as I do.
I also find it interesting how the entire song consists of one oxymoron. The contrast of the title “I hate you, I love you” struck me hard because it explains how although someone hurts you repetitively, you’ll never truly stop caring for them.
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I completely agree Ken. Losing one of my best friends was the hardest heartbreak I have ever gone through, and those exact lyrics that you quoted still remind me of her. I have an unhealthy obsession with this song because it just speaks to you in words that are very hard to explain. It’s not just the message, but Olivia O’Brien’s voice is just absolutely gorgeous. It is the way that she sings it that makes it even better. My favorite part of the song is the “all alone I watched you watch her”. The power that she uses when she says it oh my gosh it is just amazing. You picked a good song Kenny cat and summarized it better than I ever could :’) Keep showing me amazing music,I love your passion for it. You’re also the one that showed me Lana and I can never thank you enough for that.
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Like you, I also had many experiences with letting people go. In contrary to what I thought, I found that the the more I say goodbye, the more it hurts. It’s like opening an old wound over and over again until one day it no longer heals. I agree with what you said: “how although someone hurts you repetitively, you’ll never truly stop caring for them”. I had a hard time letting my old friends go, but I eventually learned to move on.
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